Holding on

I hope you'll hold on just the way I'm holding on. I'm not gonna give up w/o a fight and I don't want any of us to be walking away from this situation. I hope things get better for us.

TUMBLRRRRR

http://qtayyitscindayy.tumblr.com/

^ follow me, might not use this anymoreee

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY !

When I was first born and mommy was scared to hold me, you were the one that held me.When I was younger and I couldn't chew, you were the one that fed me. When mommy had night shift work and I was home w/ Kevin, you were the one that came to comfort us when I called. When you didn't have any money left to spare, you always gave me money to fulfill my happiness. Whenever I was in trouble or I was making a bad decision, you had always felt it & check up on me. At the beginning of 9th grade, you started coming over everyday. You came over to talk to me, to give me lessons, and to hear me out. But you eventually stopped coming over and when you stopped, I started going at it again. I started becoming rebellious again, knowing that you're not there anymore, and thinking you don't care. But I'll always love you. I have a lot of grudges against you cause when mommy started dating when I was younger, you didn't come around anymore. All those years that you had lost with me, you didn't know that Kevin & I needed you the most. The past will aways be with me and it does affect me. But I'll always forgive you cause no one could ask for a better daddy than you.

Good days never last

^ Kathy sent me this

All over again

I tried ignoring you,
I tried forgetting you & everything you put me through
But I think about those times,
the moments when you were mine
You manipulated me
into thinking you would be the one to set me free
You got me thinking you were different,
you got me going distant
In this little game of yours, you beat me to it
and all over again, I'm going through the same shiet

Written by: Cindy Pham
06/18/2010

"it kills me that I'm holding on, I needa be strong"-Keyshia Cole

Funfunfun

I hate saying goodbyee

Goodbye Freshmen year

and hello Sophomore year

Summer Goals

[] hangout w/ Kha-Dinh, Diamond, Kathy, Christine, & Tram once every week
[] get a belly piercing & get a second set of ear piercings
[] go shopping every week
[] save up money
[] get a summer job
[] lose 5-10 pounds
[] do KCK hangouts more often
[] make bestfriends' birthdays really special
[] stay sober more often
[] talk to daddy more often
[] go out to eat w/ mommy on Tuesdays
[] have no summer romancee

My little "bro"

Whenever we argue why ta fuck do you have to bring up my past ? Are you proud of it or something., why can't you just keep your mouth shut ? It's not even your fucken business, why can't you just let go ? Don't even fucken compare me to you cause everyone knows I'm a better person than you will ever be. Watch one day when I leave, you're gonna regret everything you had said or done to me. You go around and talk to your friends about me, isn't it embarrassing to talk about your family like that ? Seriously, wtf do you even want with me ? 

But then again, we always makeup at the end of every arguments.

Shopping obsession

Sometimes when I don't go to the mall at least once a week, I get really irritated. Sometimes when I go to the mall and I don't find something that I was looking for I either buy something I find cute or buy something that I really don't need like nail polish. I ALWAYS have to buy something when I go to the mall. + I hate when the mall run out of my size or they have something cute in an ugly color. 

I love Shopping

Kha-Dinh's birthday

^ me & kathy brought kha-dinh the cakeee

A video for Kha-Dinh tran

My beautiful birthday card to Kha-Dinh

I'm such a great friend

I'm such a great friend, I let you do whatever you want.
But when it comes down to you pushing the limit, I'll step in.

The only way

...to forget about you is to act like you never existed. To pretend we never met, to forget our convos, to act like we never had feelings for each other and more...

Huge Regret

One day you will come to regret it 

and I'm never gonna forgive you(:

Phases

I'm going through a phase, I'm not proud of it and I'm not gonna apologize for it.

I'll be fine

Isn't it funny how everything turned out ? Aha, I think life is funny. I thought you were different, I knew you were different. But you just lost something that could have been the best thing in your life. I haven't done the stuff I did with you & for you in a long ass time. Don't you see how you had change my life ? Loool, life moves on right ? Nothing would ever be the same and I will not shed a tear for you. You change my perspective and mostly you change who I am.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Today was the best

[what i did was for you, you're the reason]

My crush

I don't know what it is
But I get this kind of feeling every time you look at me [ look at me ]
Don't know why I'm feeling this
But that medic got me trippin' like what could it be

-Tha Roots

The way I feel about you

"red light, green light, boy please just make up your mind"

"just one kiss can take away a years pain"

-Maribelle Anes

You're my reason

I don't wanna say that you're the reason I do something

cause once you leave, I'll probably never do it again.

Lovers&Friends

tellin' me you breaking up but we can be friends then we end up making love in the back of the benz then you want me to forget everything that you’ve said so i guess we are, lovers and friends

Lovers & Friends- Lil Crazed, Trixx, And Skip

I'm annoyed

Why is so many people telling me what to do ? Let me do what I do, don't let it get to you. If you trust me, you would know that I know what I'm doing. I been annoyed these days cause of stupid shiet, so just let me be.

Cartilage piercing

^ hehe, Christine did it for me @ Natalie's house yesterday

I'm so fucken paranoid

Wtf is wrong with so many people nowadays ? Tryna fuck up their life and shiet, I get that you can choose bad decisions, but who ta hell tries so hard to fuck up their life ? What's wrong with the life that they have ? They think it's so bad when they don't look at the worst and that others been through more. It's like I'm going crazy worrying about everyone. I'm done. This shiet is stupid. I'm fucken paranoid.

Can the whole world get worst ?

Here to stay...

My big bro, Josh Nguyen.

He's so gayy.

Looks can be decieving

Just cause someone makes bad choices doesn't considered them bad. Some people say "actions and appearances make up a person", but it doesn't quite.

Plans for after graduating high school

- go to a college with medical programs for 2 years

- go to UCI for 2 years & join a sorority

- complete the years of schooling and requirements to become a pharmacist

 

THIS IS ALL FOR NOW, I HAVEN'T ACKNOWLEDGED EVERYTHING ABOUT IT YET.

Actions

Who do you think you are for having a say for my actions ?

If you wanna make a judgement,

then maybe you should stay in my life more often.

Choices

Life is a series of choices...
It's either you say yes or
you will regret your answer

When you think your life is shiet...

Health Academy

I'm so excited and most people are proud of me. Kha-Dinh & I had been wanting this since 8th grade when we went to WHS schoool night. Yay ! Imma have most of my classes with my lil butthead.

Tuzzy Muzzy

We made in Agriculture, we had to bring our own vase/containers. Mr. Benz said it was for a late Mother's Day. Well, we use cornflowers.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIAMONDLE

It's been a year and some months since we became bestfriends. I will cherish every moment we have together because I don't know when it will be our last. We argue a lot and that's just how we are. We just wants to see if the other care enough and shiet. You're not someone I can call a true bestfriend, but I rather consider you my sister. I love every arguement cause we understand each other a lil bit better then before. We been through earthquakes, tornadoes, and hurricanes. As I promise, I'll never leave you and I wont walk out on you like the others. You're my everything besides Kha-Dinh. I'm always here for you.

So I baked you a cake after school yesterday and I didn't finish decorating, so today Jawn helped me fix the frosting LOOL ! Little khadinh was too sick to help me yesterday/:

So I boiled an egg

and the water, egg, & salt form a heart

taken this picture on may 9th

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JAWN ! 05/07

You always been here from the first moment that I took my air of breath.

When we say (Juicebox)- Aj Rafael

Airplanes- B.O.B Ft. Hayley Williams

Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)
Can we pretend that airplanes
In the night sky
Are like shooting stars
I could really use a wish right now (wish right now, wish right now)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIAN 04/29

I made this the day before after school and like I made extras for my friends. I gave it to most of them, then after 1st period, I have to give my other friend the cupcakes and there was too much wind. So like the cupcakes flip and the frosting was so weird. Well this is how it suppose to loook, sorry vivian<3

Poker nails

I tried to do my nails like this

For my buttday, I want...

Happiness

If you really love someone, you let their happiness comes before your own.

What a true friend is ?

When you care about someone, even at the point where they don't even know you exist; you're a true friend if you always let them crawl back to you.

Marilyn Monore's quote

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe

Continuously

It happened before & it's all connected.

Why cry about it when it's just gonna happen again?

 Maybe it's time for me to accept the fact 

that I'm just invisible to you.

4/20

I hate how people assume that I'm gonna do shiet today just cause its 4/20. I already told them that im tryna quit and that I have a future ahead of me. It's like they are looking down on me and that they don't really know me.

I used to be

I used to live behind

my anger and shame

But now I am using my time

wisely to be done with all this irritating pain

I used to cry 

over silly things like guys

But now I am keeping my head up high

and trying to let my tears stay dry

I used to care about what people say

and what they think of me

But now I am not letting it get in my way

and letting their opinions be

I used to be those people that have no trust in themselves

and always depend on their friends&lovers

But now I am confident in myself

and able to think and act for me, not others

 I used to think having conflicts in life isn't the finest

and that life is all about fun&games

But now I am living life to the fullest

and learning new lessons even if they are lame

written by: Cindy Pham 

Mrs. Battaglia's assignment 05/13/09

Our friendship

Remember when we used to talk on the phone everyday

and we promised each other to never go away ?

Remember when I went with you through your ups&downs?

Now I realized everything I did for you was for nothing.

Sometimes I start to wish that we never met

, so things wouldn't be like this, I bet

Our friendship became nothing more, but memories

Memories that taught me a lesson,

memories that forced my mind to inquire questions.

You taught me to always be positive

and never to be negative.

You told me you would never leave

Finally I see and believe

that you used to be the reason why I woke up smiling

Now you're the only reason why I'm crying

Lyric Poem written by: Cindy Pham

Mr's Battaglia's assignment, 05/25/09

Remember when we couldn't wait to grow up ?

As we grow up;  

your best friend becomes your worst enemy.  

lollipops turn into cigarettes. 

the innocent ones turn into sluts. home work goes in the trash.

cellphones are being used in class. detention becomes suspension. 

soda becomes vodka. kisses turn into sex. 

remember 

when getting high meant swinging on the playground? 

when protection meant wearing a helmet? 

when the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? 

papa's shoulders were the highest place on earth and mama was your hero? 

your worst enemies were your siblings, 

race issues were about who ran the fastest. 

war was only a card game; the only drug you knew was cough medicine. 

wearing a skirt didn't make you a slut. 

the only things that hurt you were skinned knees and; 

goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? 

remember when we couldn't wait to grow up?

-written by: Cambria Fallon Santiago 

I'm done

I tried to make us like before

, but it will never ever happen again.

I'm done and this time it's for sure.

No coming back at all.

Tiring day

Started with $120. West mall w/ Vivian & Kelly. When we were about to leave, I called up Christine and ask where she was. So, I told Kelly to drop me off at Walmart. David dropped me & Christine off at home. In like an hour or so, he drop us off @ bellaterra, so we can pick up tram. After that, David drop us off at Hope Chapel to go to Christine's youth group. David was lagging it, so Christine ask Megan to drive us to Tram's house. Next, David pick us up, drove us to jack-in-the-box. Finally, he drove me home. Ended with $53.

"Keep people that love you or care about you cause they'll keep you going in the future"
^ learned it in youth group

out w/ BestMotherFuckenFriendForLife

V o l c a n o T e a <3

Then we went to get a haircut together for the first time, aha;D It was so fun when we we're jsut looking at the pictures on the wall and Larry, our hairstylist, was staring at us when we turned around. And that time when I suggested you get a mo hawk(sexy khadinh.) We laugh at the same thingsXD It was weird how my aunt saw me and gave me $60, but I complain so she gave me $40. We left the hair salon without paying for our haircut cause my aunt offer to pay for both. We only paid for tip. Then we took photostickers and I called up Vivian to see where she was. And she was nearby, so I told her to come to burgerking to see me.She likes our haircut and I told her to drive us to target.We we're in target for like 30-40 mins and my mom came by to pick us up. We went to the supermarket and we did crazy things in there. The workers thought we we're sisters or some shiet. Haha, my mom called us crazy. LOOOOOOOOOOOOOL ! ^____________^You're the type of person that I can have fun with in the asian supermarket. <3

These are some reasons why I can call you my BMFFFL !

It happens so fast

What happen to us ? We started getting closer, but now. We're drifting apart and I know for a fact that I'm not the one that cause that. You did. I have so much against you right now. I appreciate you being there for me ever since. But honestly, you're not the same person I want to call one of my best friends. I don't even know what to do with you.

I'm straight-forward to you, you know that. I don't bitch at you just cause I know I'm right, I do it cause I wanna teach you. So later on, you won't have to experience your mistake.  

It's your choice, your decision, your life.

Out w/ Christine&Diamond

^ I made it for Tiffany @ her bonfire ^_______^

C a M e L c R u S h E s <3

After the bonfire, Christine, Diamond, & I went around the pier w/ David and his girlfriend. We also went to Volcano Tea.

DIAMOND BUMP INTO THE  WALL/TREExD

[Lol, inside joke.]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY !

Babygirl, it's your buttday.

I love you a lot, you don't even know.

I haven't seen you in such a long time.

I know I don't think of you sometimes & forget about you

, but you know that we're close by heart.

I might not always be there

, but I'll always love you.

Hope you have fun in a couple of hours.

Mommy loves you to the fullest<3

Can't believe you lied

You obviously lied & I caught you slipping

even before you even told me straight-up

You thought that I wouldn't understand 

and I would be mad.

I'm mad now cause you lied

when you could have told me straight-up.

It took 2 person until you came out with the truth.

I don't get what is there to hide from me .

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY HA !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY !

 You better appreciate the card that Christine & I made.

I was the one that wanted to make your card like @ 130am. I also didn't sleep that much and we had late start and we had to go to your birthday breakfast. LOOOL ! See how much I want to make my bigbro happy ? Justkidding, I would do it anyways w/o appreciation.Hope you had a wonderful birthday & you everything you want. I hope you enjoy it even when little Tram had her "river" moment. Anyways, I'm glad that you're my bigbro<3

Lil Sis loves you <3

KCK @DowntownDisney

Today we went to Downtown Disney @ 3 to 7.

It was fun just hanging out w/ Kha-Dinh & Kathy.

We ate & took pictures & shop.

LOOOL ^______^

Then we went to get crepes @ Genki Living.

Now I'm sleepingover @ Christine's house

because there's late start tomorrow

and we're gonna eat @ Harry's for Andy's birthday.

Railroad

^ Taken on March 17, 2010 by me

Is it true or false ?

Did you guys play a fucken prank or what ?

There's like no proof that it's true.

Plus your "statements/opinions" doesn't all make sense.

We call & aim you guys up,

you guys don't pick up / reply.

Wattahell is that ?

And you guys sign off.

Uhhhh...

Heard it in a great movie "Remember Me

"Whatever you do in life will be insignificant...but it's very important that you do it."

-Ghandi

watched w/ Christine & Kha-Dinh <333
on March 12th

Street Pharm #2 Quotes

 "A good leader knows his enemy's next move, and strike first."

-Allison can Diepen [Street Pharm](37)

"When you're up against a force of equal power, the answer isn't to try to prove you're better. The answer is to wait for an advantage."

-Allison can Diepen [Street Pharm](143)

Street Pharm

If a brother wanna get ahead, he gotta use every minute to better himself. Everything I did made me better---tougher, stronger, richer, smarter---or I didn't do it.

- Allison van Diepen [Street Pharm]

Th1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY #3 Quote

When you mess with one part of a person's life, you're messing with their entire life.

- Jay Asher [Th1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY](201)

Th1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY #2 Quote

No one knows for certain how much impact they have on the lives of other people. 

Oftentimes, we have no clue. 

Yet we push it just the same.

- Jay Asher [Th1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY](156)

GOSSIPGIRL

You're nobody till you're talked about

- Gossip Girl

Th1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY

You can't stop the future

You can't rewind the past

The only way to learn the secret

...is to press play.

- Jay Asher [Th1RTEEN R3ASONS WHY]

A day w/ C.A.T

Caroline- Yoo Cindy It's Carolinee. [: Even though it might not seem that your close to me, you still are. If it seems like we're distant its not like we are its just we do our own thingg. But your still in my heartt. Cause you're pretty amazing, even when you get mad at me for something stupid, I just tell myself your worth itt. I like how you can pretend that it doesn't matter so the people around you don't mind. Stay strong and don't be what people tell you to be. Be a better person so you can be proud of yourself in the future.


Andy- Cindy you're really cute, nice, and cool. That's all I got LOL you're special and amazing.

Tram- Well hey darling <3 Its 03.07.2k10 haha & you're @ my place LOL How are you? Haha im all good with life (: you're amazing. You're a miracle jesus has given me. Thanks for being in my life ^___________________________________________________^

P.s andy is a faggit cuz he can't ask me out properly xD

What I think of the World

Growing up as a young girl

and trying to seek into the world

Where ever I walk,

I can't hear myself talk, but others talk

Girls talking shit,

calling one another a bitch

Guns shooting at night

and hanging out at daylight

Spoiled brats shopping at the mall

and poor kids wanting it all

Homeless wishing upon stars

and the richest spending on cars

People think their dreams are impossible

and celebrities knows it possible

People with different skin color wanting to be treated the same way

when others just look away

Gangstas selling drugs

and lovers giving hugs

15 years old, wanting to drop out

, so parents having doubts

Children getting abused,

while others are amused

Time pass 

and nothing will last.

Written on 08192008

This one time

Just cause I fuck up this one time,

this shiet happens.

Everyone knows I respect you so much

, so you should know that I didn't really mean to.

[Hope my mom decides to]

"I know you can't run away from your problems 

cause it will always follow you everywhere you go. 

But there's an urge to run away from it."

Henry's stickers game

^ Christine told me to post it up

Obsessed

The smell of you just draws me in,
a glimpse of you just turns me on,
the sound of your voice just gets me off,
& now the only thing in my mind is the thought of you.

"Baby I want you", "I need you", "I love you",
that's the only thing that goes through my mind,
nothing to do but think about you.

I can't get you out of my head,
or it's just I don't want you out of my mind,
thinking about you is the only thing that I have left of you,
just thoughts & memories of you.

The thought of letting go of the memories of everything we've been through,
I can't & I won't,
I love you & I won't let go of you,
I miss you & I'm obsessed with you.

- written by: my best friend, Christine Tran

I'm sorry

There's so much to tell you

, but I don't know if you wanna hear it

You don't understand

and you don't know how much you words hurt

You said that you didn't drop me

, but it feels like you did

I'm crying so much and don't know when to stop

Unconditional

Even if you don't noticed when we're drifting away and other people & I noticed, you're always gonna be close by heart. Plus, I'm always gonna love you unconditionally.

My cutie QuyenLe

Terrible Day

Got $80 jack at school.

Fucken bitches, imma get back at you !

YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS CAUSE I HAVE MONEY AND YOU DON'T , SO YOU HAVE TO TAKE MY MONEY

Grandpa almost die right in front of my eyes

STAY STRONG GRANDPA !

Before we drift apart

It feels like we're starting to slowly drift apart from each other. I know we say a lot, we say that nothing can compare to our friendship and shiet like that. But look now, where do we both stand in this friendship ? I don't say shiet and I hide it because I don't think that you care. You might say that you care, but I think that actions speak louder than words. We don't even have time alone. We don't have them long-lasting phone calls. At least we should have some hanging out time. But I don't think it will happen, we only have school together.

I can only try to cherish what's left.

If I could change 3 things

1. My parents would get back together

     I probably wouldn't have had so much freedom.

     Probably I wouldn't have be standing here in this position. 

     Maybe would have took school a lil bit more seriously.

     Also, I could have been a better person. 

2. Shouldn't have took people for granted

     Probably would treated people better & appreciate them.

     Woulda have listen more & not leave people hanging.

3. Should have stayed straight-edge

     Never would have disappoint my close ones.

     Never would have start craving

     Never would have spend money on them

Maybe there's a way to turn back ?

Using less

Im tryna use less

for those who care & worry for me.

I may not tell you what I'm doing to kill myself

, but I think you should know by now.

You may be disappointed, but it should be for the obvious.

Imma cut down on smoking & rolling.

I'll only do those stuff once in awhile, yeah ?

Thanks for understanding.

Plus I promise someone that I'll only do it around them

& I promised some people to that imma cut down

"Feeding your addiction is your choice."

What family is ?

Hung Trinh, my #1 homeboy: I love him to the fullest. My daddy.

We never made each other mad/piss each other off.

Yesterday was the first time, I ever cried for/about him.

People say that if we don't argue, then when we argue 

and hold grudges. But trust me, it aint gonna be like that.

We can change that.

Diamond Le, my #1 little sister. My twin, my other half.

Been through thick&thin, through tears&laughters.

BabySis, I promise to not fight a lot anymore.

Vinh Trinh, my big bro. We recently became big bro&lil sis.

It all started when I rolled and I told you that you're my homeboy.

After that, I'm like "even though we make fun of each other, we are still close"

Rodney Le, my other big bro. We also recently became big bro&lil sis.

Started when Hung told you to take care of Diamond.

RODNEY/VINH: We're all family now !

Ride with me ? All the way

Getting Hooked

Accidents in Life

"There are no accidents in life--that people come in your circle because you have something to learn from them."

[Viola in Reel Life](85)

 

diamond is the daayum ass bomb

Gucci & Chanel

Yesterday, my daddy brought 2 puppies, but my mom wouldn't let me keep them. She wouldn't even let me keep one. cause she is scared of puppies/dogs. Anyways, I hate people who sell their dogs cause the dogs are so innocent afraid & cute.

v My daddy holding Gucci & Chanel

  ^Gucci (innocent) & Chanel (playful)

^Gucci & I staring at each other before I let her go

^My little Gucci, baby

"No matter how far you are, you'll always be close to me by heart."

Judgment Quotes

"You never really understand a person until you . . . climb into his skin and walk around in it."

- Atticus Finch [ToKillAMockingbird]

"We can never judge the lives of others, because each person knows only their own pain and renunciation. It's one thing to feel that you are on the right path, but it's another to think that yours is the only path." -Paulo Coelho

"Do not judge, so that you may not be judged. For with the judgment you make, you will be judged, and the measure you give will be the measure you get."

- Matthew 7:1-3

Element-nopoly's characters

^6 Period, Eusantos

[c] Krissey Alexander

You'll never know what might hit you.

So yesterday, my dad, kathy, and I was on our way to Westminster Mall @ around 1:30ish to meet up with Kha-Dinh & Vivian.We were passing the cemetery and on our left was a car accident. A van drove into a wall to someone's house. The house was located near the streets where the opening is to turn in. The accident seem like the driver probably died or had a lot of injuries. Therefore, the driver probably was intoxicated. The car accident caused a lot of attention, so there were a couple of police cars, ambulances, and people. When Kha-Dinh's dad was on his way to drive me home around 6ish, we passed the accident again and everything cleared up, except some construction workers that is fixing the wall. I mean who would want to go to sleep knowing that their wall has an opening where someone can walk in their backyard.

I learned to never live in a house near the streets, never drive if you are intoxicated, and appreciate what life gives you and what life appear to be.

Where do we stand ?

Cause I don't know what to do with you

Sometimes you're this person

and 

sometimes I don't even wanna deal with you

GOD answered my prayers...

when I didn't talk to my Daddy on Saturday afternoon til today at 6pm.
I got worried and scared. Daddy's phone ran outta battery then it rang all the way through til voicemail ;D After that, he came over cause he brought me & my little brother food and drove me to Kha-Dinh's house to pick up my binder&notebook

GOD is my savior

3 days & 2 nights with GANGSTER DADDY

FRIDAY:

                        4 Smirnoff & reeeeeeeeeed deeeevil 
                Pool Hall for awhile

                 Tripped out cause Rodney Alex & Vinh kept leaving

                 , but freaken Hung calmed me down

SATURDAY: 

             Sips of mickeys 

SUNDAY: 

             Camel Crush

DIAMOND  & ANDY IS SLEEEPING OVER

Sometimes...

life turns around 

and 

hit you hard /:

I feel like shiet

Over my head

I hate to admit this

, but I think I'm falling for you

You're in my mind day & night

Whenever I have day dreaming time, 

you'd pop into my mind

I hate the fact that I feel like this

It kills me inside-out

Erasing you from my mind is like staring at the sun

I can't see straight with you in the way

My heart aches because of you

Wishing that I'd be in your arms is pointless

I'll never have a chance

Just thinking of it pains this fragile heart

Why can't you get out of my head ?

I'm in over my head

- written by: my street sis, Tram Pham

   edited by: Cindyyxbabii

"I might be over my head a little over my head, but I kind of like it.This is not what I expected.

A little over my head, but I kind of like it."- Ne-yo

Dreams

When the sun has set

and the moon arrives,

my once forgotten soul

is then revived.

Because once the moon comes

that's when my dreaming begins

and I'll be next to you

all over again.

In this world of imagination

& surreal images and surroundings,

you & I as one

is more than astounding

, but once the night ends

and I've turned back to reality

I face the harsh world,

waiting for you to be with me.

-written by: a friend. Jeannie Hoang

What if ?

What if I wasn't so stubborn and I actually take people's advice ? What if I didn't bitch at people when they are wrong ? What if most of my actions didn't piss off people ? What if people weren't concern over how I corrupt my own life ? What if I didn't make my closest friends worry about me to the point where they couldn't sleep peacefully ? What if I didn't make my closest home girls and parents want to cry/cry over me ? What if my parents didn't give me so much freedom ? What if I say I wanna start my life all over ? People these days need to stop tripping and get some common sense. I'm not ignorant, I always learn from my mistake. I'm tired of getting into so many arguments and drama. Everything I've been through made me who I am today.

Currently: thinking a lot about you lately & always will remember the worst birthday present ever