Holding on

I hope you'll hold on just the way I'm holding on. I'm not gonna give up w/o a fight and I don't want any of us to be walking away from this situation. I hope things get better for us.

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HAPPY FATHER'S DAY !

When I was first born and mommy was scared to hold me, you were the one that held me.When I was younger and I couldn't chew, you were the one that fed me. When mommy had night shift work and I was home w/ Kevin, you were the one that came to comfort us when I called. When you didn't have any money left to spare, you always gave me money to fulfill my happiness. Whenever I was in trouble or I was making a bad decision, you had always felt it & check up on me. At the beginning of 9th grade, you started coming over everyday. You came over to talk to me, to give me lessons, and to hear me out. But you eventually stopped coming over and when you stopped, I started going at it again. I started becoming rebellious again, knowing that you're not there anymore, and thinking you don't care. But I'll always love you. I have a lot of grudges against you cause when mommy started dating when I was younger, you didn't come around anymore. All those years that you had lost with me, you didn't know that Kevin & I needed you the most. The past will aways be with me and it does affect me. But I'll always forgive you cause no one could ask for a better daddy than you.

Good days never last

^ Kathy sent me this

All over again

I tried ignoring you,
I tried forgetting you & everything you put me through
But I think about those times,
the moments when you were mine
You manipulated me
into thinking you would be the one to set me free
You got me thinking you were different,
you got me going distant
In this little game of yours, you beat me to it
and all over again, I'm going through the same shiet

Written by: Cindy Pham
06/18/2010

"it kills me that I'm holding on, I needa be strong"-Keyshia Cole

Funfunfun

I hate saying goodbyee

Goodbye Freshmen year

and hello Sophomore year

Summer Goals

[] hangout w/ Kha-Dinh, Diamond, Kathy, Christine, & Tram once every week
[] get a belly piercing & get a second set of ear piercings
[] go shopping every week
[] save up money
[] get a summer job
[] lose 5-10 pounds
[] do KCK hangouts more often
[] make bestfriends' birthdays really special
[] stay sober more often
[] talk to daddy more often
[] go out to eat w/ mommy on Tuesdays
[] have no summer romancee

My little "bro"

Whenever we argue why ta fuck do you have to bring up my past ? Are you proud of it or something., why can't you just keep your mouth shut ? It's not even your fucken business, why can't you just let go ? Don't even fucken compare me to you cause everyone knows I'm a better person than you will ever be. Watch one day when I leave, you're gonna regret everything you had said or done to me. You go around and talk to your friends about me, isn't it embarrassing to talk about your family like that ? Seriously, wtf do you even want with me ? 

But then again, we always makeup at the end of every arguments.

Shopping obsession

Sometimes when I don't go to the mall at least once a week, I get really irritated. Sometimes when I go to the mall and I don't find something that I was looking for I either buy something I find cute or buy something that I really don't need like nail polish. I ALWAYS have to buy something when I go to the mall. + I hate when the mall run out of my size or they have something cute in an ugly color. 

I love Shopping